Identity Revisited

So, a few posts ago I wrote about identity and the fact that major parts of my life are about to shift with the arrival of the baby. Recently, I returned to Old Testament reading about the various individuals of wickedness or faith recorded there. I found that short verses began to really jump out at me, namely those that were a summary description of the person's character or life actions as viewed by God. A few examples:

Of Caleb, Numbers 14. "...because he has a different spirit and follows me fully"

Of King Jehosaphat of Judah, 2 Chronicles 17. "His heart was courageous in the ways of the Lord."

Of King Abijam, 1 Kings 15, "And he walked in all the sins that his father did before him, and his heart was not wholly true to the LORD his God, as the heart of David his father."

Of King Asa, 1 King 15, "And Asa did what was right in the eyes of the Lord..."

Of King Ahab of Israel, 1 Kings 16 "Ahab did more to provoke the LORD, the God of Israel, to anger than all the kings of Israel who were before him."

And of course, Hebrews chapter 11 describes a long list of people of great faith and is well-worth reading over. There are many, many more descriptions of both good and bad individuals throughout Scripture, but even just these have been enough to make me wonder...how would God describe me? On our own, we are all assured of a judgement of "wicked" or "evil" or "unholy," before God...no amount of good deeds can restore us to perfection and holiness. To be judged as such is to spend an eternity apart from God; He is Holy, Wonderful, Perfect...evil and wickedness will not dwell with Him in heaven, but apart from Him in hell.

But, for those who believe in Christ, we have the assurance that He sees us as righteousness because Christ has covered over all our wickedness and clothed us before God in his own perfect righteousness. While this is a beautiful, blessed assurance of access to eternity with Him in heaven, our all-knowing God is sure to be aware of my character as it stands in the moment...and thankfully, He supplies His spirit to empower us to grow and mature from whatever point we find ourselves. But it all makes me wonder...does He see me as timid? bold? persevering, hopeful, or easily turned aside? Food for thought, as I consider my ways in light of Scripture -there are words to describe me, but are the ones I want to continue to fulfill before God?